Quietly Contemplating...

For awhile now I have been meaning to try and make blogging a weekly thing - but like so many possibly feel - I wonder who would want to read this; and why on earth would they spend time reading my thoughts?  

But, alas, this morning - I was hit with the realization that sometimes God gives us stories or words of encouragement, or moments where He uses our stories and thoughts to impact other people, for the good of His Kingdom and the furtherance of His Gospel.  So, far be it from me to not share my stories. 

Lately, I have been on a spiritual mountaintop.  Now, by looking at my life, it would be very hard to see that, as the only change that has come into my life - has been hard and negative.  But, through it all, my Jesus has taught me so much.  I feel like in the last month, I have become a completely different person.  A few months back God began to speak to me, and He asked me to step out of a ministry that I was involved in - and I fought Him on this, bargained with Him, and even gave Him an ultimatum - which never works.  So, after wrestling with this idea, I reluctantly obeyed - stepped out and I am immediately receiving blessing from God, possible direction and a desire to do new and exciting things for the Kingdom of God that I have never even dreamed of before!  I am finding that I have new desires, new passions and a burning desire to be like Moses... drawn into the thick of darkness to be face to face with God!

As I was wrestling about stepping back from a ministry, God took ahold of another area of my life, and totally ripped it apart.  It was by far, one of the hardest, most painful situations I have ever had to walk through; but I know that I serve a risen Savior, a God King, who sits on His throne no matter what my life may look like!  Out of this hard situation, I have been able to stand firm in my faith, be tested on my convictions, hear from God, walk in His Ways, and overcome some serious fear of conflict!  And I can honestly say while it was terrible, gut -wrenching and ended in a loss for me and my family, we praise God that He who took us to it, got us through it!

I guess that is going to be all for now - except to say that if anyone does read this, I pray that you would know that God is bigger than our problems, and even when the world seems to fade away and run to culture and comfort - press into Him, ignore your circumstances, because it is in the thick of darkness, in the midst of confusion and wilderness - that we are able to speak with God face to face!